Tonight broke me.
- Heartbroken doesn't quite cover it.
I honestly can't remember the last time I've cried this hard and for this long. It's been cathartic, but completely exhausting at the same time.
I'm giving myself the rest of tonight to purge these feelings, emotions, and the negative energy - to mourn the loss of a relationship that I now know, shouldn't have ever happened in the first place.
You can't complete a puzzle that you weren't given all the pieces to. I find a whole lot of peace in that. I was ill-prepared for the fight and tried so hard to fix something that I never could have fixed.
One more night. A few more hours. - To cry, to sob uncontrollably, to scream and yell at myself. - Then I'm officially letting it all go. I'm going to give it to God and go to sleep.
Thankful for His grace and that tomorrow is a new day.
Praying for peace, healing and guidance.
Keep breathing... and just keep moving forward, Sylvia... one foot at a time.