So I'm sure some of you may have noticed that I've been cryptic and oh-so emo with my social media posts lately. I've been flying under the radar a lot these days.
I've told a handful of friends and family that I felt needed to know what was happening right now... As for the rest of you, I've deflected the questions and ignored numerous calls and texts.
Alan and I have agreed to separate for the time being.
I have officially moved out of our home and am temporarily shacking up with my best friend, Karla, until I can figure out how I want to proceed.
This wasn't an easy decision... for any of us.
Even though it was ultimately my decision to leave, that doesn't mean it's been all fun, puppy kisses and unicorn farts. It's been a hard, hard thing to stomach.
The "why" of it is complicated to say the very least... and you'd probably only understand my reasoning if you were extremely close to me, or spent a substantial amount of time at our house with us. I've never been one to openly share private details of my relationship struggles with people I weren't extremely close to.
- That being said, I'm not going to air out all of our issues.
But here's what I feel you all do need to know:
- My kids are both doing well and adjusting.
- Alan and I are very dedicated to our kids and have been able to remain very amicable, patient and understanding of one another.
- We had issues from the beginning. I spent much of the last 5 years trying to be very communicative about my feelings on those issues and tried to offer up many viable solutions. I have a lot of peace right now knowing that no one (Alan included) can say that I didn't try.
- I'm not ready to talk about it. I'm still figuring this whole thing out right now. There are so many bits and pieces and I'm just trying to find that one crucial piece that will help the whole picture come back into focus.
- I appreciate every call, email, text and prayer from those that have reached out to me privately. Please continue to pray for me and my family as we search for the right answers. Thank you.