Showing posts from 2011

"It's the Most Wonderful Time of the Year."

So I've been trying to get this blog written for two weeks now.  I keep writing, then saving, then coming back to edit, then saving again - rinse and repeat.
I managed to have a whole Sunday off two weekends ago. It's not often that my schedule allows me to make it to church on Sunday mornings. But when the opportunity arises, I usually like to go - especially on the weekends that I have Emily home with me.

I haven't officially found a church "home" of my own here in Nashville, however, I do have a few churches that I go to on a semi-regular basis.

This past Sunday, I went to my in-law's church (The River).  The pastor's message was on the3 Christmas Killers. Obviously, it really hit home because I felt compelled to share.

It's no secret that I've been in an uncharacteristically foul mood as of late. I can't quite put my finger on the reason(s) why though. It's not the typical Christmas chaos getting to me. It's definitely not a dislik…

"Rumour has it..."

Gosh, it seems that I've been too busy these days to keep up with my blog.

I'm sure it comes as no surprise to most of you in my friend circle that I've been working entirely too much, which means trying to form a cohesive string of thoughts to put in a public post for everyone to effectively comprehend hasn't been an easy task.

But yet here I am.

As far as work goes:
- I am so, so blessed! Freelancing has been keeping me busy to say the least. I'm also working on a pretty regular basis at The Cosmetic Market. My in-home treatment room is functional - though not completely finished - and has allowed me to service the few regular Aesthetics clients that I have when my schedule permits. And finally, I just officially signed on with Too Faced Cosmetics this week as a freelancer for several stores in the Nashville area - which I'm very excited about.

On the home front:
- Home renovations are coming along... still soooo much to do, but we're tackling…

"Good Golly, Miss Molly!"

Things have been quite insane at the Casa de Fox-Smith as of late.

LOTS of changes taking place, lots of decisions to pray hard about.

For starters, Alan officially turned in his notice last week. This has come as a VERY welcomed gesture - especially since we've been married I have hardly been able to see my husband because of work. Although I'm extremely happy that he won't have to stay at work till all hours of the morning cleaning up the messes his incompetent employees unfailingly leave for him every night, at the same time, my mind, body and soul are completely exhausted from the constant state of worry they've been in since the day he called his district manager to inform him of his decision.

He's got a lot of things in the works - tossing around a lot of ideas and making all kinds of plans. - And much like the situation I found myself in when I was about to leave my insurance job several years ago to pursue Aesthetics school, Alan is also registering for …

"Breathe in, breathe out, move on and break down..."

I seriously feel like I'm losing it.

Why is it so hard to accept and openly admit that you're in the middle of an all-out knock-down drag-out fight with depression???

I've seen it slowly creeping in for a couple of months now... each passing day getting more difficult to keep it all contained.

The extreme mood swings, the lack of patience, the hyper-sensitivity, the change in eating habits, the non-stop crying, the loathing of your own appearance, the insecurities, the difficulty sleeping, the lack of motivation to get out of bed...

It's all here.

Unfortunately, this has been something I've dealt with on and off for the majority of my life.

Circumstance isn't helping much either. My schedule has been all out of whack. Who knew working for yourself would wreck so much havoc on your day to day life? - And this house is about to drive me completely bananas. Renovations are s-l-o-w, to say the least. Between Alan working so much at his craptastic job and my being…

"I Should Be So Lucky in Love."

Gosh... it's been 3 months since my last blog. It seems I'm finally acclimating myself to the duties of "real life" again after being completely consumed by a world of wedding planning for the last several months.

Even the simplest of weddings are a challenge to orchestrate. -And let's not even begin to discuss how expensive weddings are. -I can not imagine having a huge all-out wedding with hundreds and hundreds of guests. I would end up in the funny farm for sure.

-That being said, our wedding day has come and gone. In all aspects, April 9th turned out to be a BEAUTIFUL day. Abundant sunshine. Not a drop of rain. -And record breaking high temperatures - 91 degrees to be exact.

The ceremony was perfect. I couldn't have asked for anything more. It was everything I wanted and then some. Simple, minimal, heart-felt and sweet. If I could do it all over again, I would - over and over again, exactly the same - just minus all the "crazy" and s…

"Somehow, I'm Leading Someone Else's Life."

I'm in a state of serious transition, and most of you know how being uprooted and completely out of my normal routines effect me. It's not pretty, to say the least.

Originally, Alan & I had planned to move into a place of our own, however, considering all the transitions taking place over the first part of this year, we decided that staying in his home and making the necessary renovations, then selling it in a year or so would be the wisest plan of action for us financially. After all, the number one strain on any marriage is finances so we decided that we'd be able to keep that to a minimum for a while by staying put.

So a couple of weekends ago, Alan, Emily and I went to Home Depot to price flooring, pick colors, and get some ideas for updating the house. We left with paint for the master bedroom and for Emily's bedroom. The first coat of pretty purple paint is up in Em's room and I can already envision how adorable her room will be once we finish spongin…

"So this is the new year..."

2010 in retrospect:

* I survived a surgery that completely changed my life for the better.

* I finally graduated from Aesthetics school.

* I experienced the busiest year of freelancing I have ever had.

* I met my soul mate.

* And after a lengthy succession of challenging years, 2010 was finally a year to be remembered by the amount of smiling I did rather than the amount of tears I cried.

Hello & Welcome, 2011!

It's 26 days till my daughter's SIXTH birthday. It's hard to believe I've been a mom for SIX years. - Man, where does the time go?!?!

But as trying as my journey has been at times, especially doing it all as a single mom, I can honestly say I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I didn't have her in my life. She IS my saving grace and the whole reason why I continue to chase my dreams with such ferocity.


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