Monday, April 18, 2011

"I Should Be So Lucky in Love."

Gosh... it's been 3 months since my last blog. It seems I'm finally acclimating myself to the duties of "real life" again after being completely consumed by a world of wedding planning for the last several months.

Even the simplest of weddings are a challenge to orchestrate. -And let's not even begin to discuss how expensive weddings are. -I can not imagine having a huge all-out wedding with hundreds and hundreds of guests. I would end up in the funny farm for sure.

-That being said, our wedding day has come and gone. In all aspects, April 9th turned out to be a BEAUTIFUL day. Abundant sunshine. Not a drop of rain. -And record breaking high temperatures - 91 degrees to be exact.

The ceremony was perfect. I couldn't have asked for anything more. It was everything I wanted and then some. Simple, minimal, heart-felt and sweet. If I could do it all over again, I would - over and over again, exactly the same - just minus all the "crazy" and stress.

There it is. I am a married woman.

Who would've thought my life would take this sort of turn and then make it all happen so fast? I sure didn't. I remember many times over the past several years wondering if I would ever find that one person who was made especially for me.

It's no secret that I've had some commitment issues. As Brooke so eloquently threw me under the bus in her blog. -Yes, I've dated some really great guys. -Annnnnnd, this goes without saying, I dated some real jerks too.

So many of those relationships didn't work because I was searching for something to fill the deepest of voids within my own heart, but yet I had no clue as to what that void needed to be filled with, thus making dating and relationships very difficult for me to sustain.

I speak from experience when I say this: "When you know, you just know." I admittedly caught some flack from people in my life who weren't very close to me about my decision to get married to someone I hadn't officially known for very long. -Yes, Alan and I had barely been together a few weeks before we started discussing marriage seriously, but we just knew. It was totally a God thing and we both truly believe that. There was a reason why we were Facebook friends for 2 years without ever meeting. We had several of the same friends. We had been in the same place at the same time with said mutual friends on more than one occasion but were never formally introduced. It just wasn't the right time for us to meet. We both were not ready.

After meeting Alan in person, I quickly figured out what it was that I had been looking for. I had finally found that person who made every ounce of hurt that had ever happened in my life completely fade away. Someone who understands me - better than I understand myself a lot of the time. I've found my soul mate. I finally feel complete.

Even though I have my moments of non-stop griping and complaining about the ridiculous state our house is currently in, I know I have so much to be thankful for.

I'm a 32 year old married mother of one. My amazing husband not only loves me completely, but loves my child just as much. I'm lucky enough to be doing what I love for a living. We're making plans and setting new goals together. We have a house - that with a lot of patience and hard work will eventually become a humble, comfy & cozy home. I feel secure knowing that my family can and will love me through whatever challenges we encounter together. -Oh, lest we not forget to mention how abundantly lucky I am to have so many amazing friends who would do anything and everything to help me (and vice-versa).

I'm a very blessed lady. Life is good... Really, really good.